34 Days

Talked to Kelly on the phone last night. In the beginning of the call, I was soon so completely stressed out and tearing up. We have such little time left together, and I am really starting to freak out. The conversation had it's ups and downs. There was one point were he told me he's only coming back on his first leave because he has to. Thirty minutes later, he was offering to direct-deposit money in my account every month to help me out through college. Both of those I was completely astounded by. Time soon came to get off the phone, and I wanted nothing more than to fall asleep while on the phone with him. Five more days...

I had my wisdom teeth removed at 9:40 this morning. I wasn't scared until the IV was in and the meds that put me to sleep were in. They all went into my hand and it hurt. I remember trying to stay awake and then waking up with gauze in my mouth. The anesthesia was making me scared and panicky and want to cry. While I was under, Mom went to get all my necessary meds and she picked up apple juice, store-made chocolate milk, and chocolate chip muffins.

I'm home now, watching Beauty and The Beast and singing along to it... to the best of my ability. I love this movie; it's my favorite Disney princess movie of all time. Next I think I'm going to watch Aladdin or Tarzan... or just take a nap. My jaw thoroughly hurts. They gave me percoset and that one never seems to work well for me. The ice packs on my face are stinging my skin, but that's no big deal.

I am in so much pain! Every time I change the gauze, it feels like the new gauze is stabbing me  in the incision area. It throws me into a panicky state of being. Makes me what to throw up the stitched and the blood clots that are pertinent not to lose.

On a whim no more than seven minutes ago, I decided to order the boyfriend pillow off of Overstocks.com. I've learned the hard way last week that split/impulse decisions always turn out poorly for me. But, I have my Visa info memorized , thus continuing my problem. Oh well; this is something I've wanted for a long time and I'm really excited to get it and it only was $24.