36 Days

Last night I saw X-Men First Class with Dillon and his girlfriend Kelsey. I enjoyed the movie, but I wish it was just a smidge later. I had just gotten on the phone with Kelly when Dillon texted me saying that he was on his way to get me. I was so disappointed that I was about to miss my chance to catch up with Kel. I sent Dillon a vague and panicked text and he was able to pick Kelsey up before me, thus giving Kelly and I about a half-hour on the phone. We've made plans to talk tomorrow night.

The converation wasn't about anything special in particular. The simple fact that I could hear his voice when he said "I love you" as opposed to reading it on my phone screen was enough to make my night. I miss him more now than I have since last summer when I was laying up in a hospital bed and he was all I wanted. I want to be by his side more than anything. If it didn't disrupt his plans and screw me outta my wisdom teeth removal, I'd seriously contemplate going out a few days early; I just miss him that much.

I looked at my itinerary today and I've realized that my layover in Minnesota is four and a half hours long. I'll need to be at DIA around 6:30 in the morning. I'll be spending all Saturday traveling as opposed to the previous notion that I had where I'd get to spend a decent chunk of that day with Kelly. Things are so down to the wire already that every hour counts. I even woke up later than normal and kicked myself for it because it meant two fewer hours of texting him. With all this pressure, I am either going to succeed or crumble.

Kelly's best friend, Cameron, wants to fly back from Illinois with us. With how I've been borderline obsessing with making every last day perfect, this was far from good news. Kelly said that he has informed Cameron that the trip needs to wait until after my birthday and needs to give Kelly the last six or so days before he leaves for basic. Kelly explained that with airfare costs being the way they are, the ticket would be more expensive if he's out here for the fourth of July. So, under Kelly's advice and restrictions, Cameron would only be out for about five days. I am seriously wondering if that is all a conspiracy to take all my time away from him before he's gone for four months with zero contact. Yes, I am slightly overreacting and Cameron is a great kid but come ON! I want MY time with him. NOW.

Today I got my ring cleaned and went to WalMart with my mom. It was ok... until I started having an anxiety attack because of all of the people there. The isles would get really crowded all of a sudden and I felt trapped and scared. I've never had a claustrophobia problem before. When we got home all of my mucles were drained, as if I was kickboxing the whole time. It was strange.

Now I am off to the Holiday Twin Drive In with Carter, Tim, and the twins. We're going to see Kung Fu Panda 2 and Thor. I'm excited; my first drive in of the year.