17 Days

At least the single thing I was most looking forward too this week worked out for me; Avenue Q was incredibly funny and I loved every second of it. Somewhere in the back of my mind was Kelly and how he should have been there with Lane and I. I would have given anything to have laughed in a theatre with Kelly all night. Lane and Cameron stayed the night last night; it was the last chance we had to see friends. Unfortunately, Kelly had to get up incredibly early to take his dad to work, and there wasn't a big opportunity for goodbyes. I woke up when Kelly was getting dressed but soon fell asleep after he I encased me in the comforter. I awoke for the second time to a text from Lane, who was asking if I was awakd because he wanted to say goodbye. I went downstairs, folded up the blankets they used and said goodbye to Lane. We'll be flying out tomorrow afternoon, going hiking on Sunday morning and celebrating my birthday on Monday. I wish there was more time left with Kelly. It kills me that time has been wasted being angry or upset with one another. I would love to have a second chance with that time so I could spend it telling him how much he means to me.