18 Days

So, we didn't go to Six Flags on yesterday like we planned; it was canceled due to poor planning and crappy weather. NOT doing as we planned seems to be the theme of the week, and let me tell you, it is one sucky theme. Instead, we met up with the friends we were going with and walked around each mall in the area and saw the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie in 3D. It wasn't bad, but it also wasn't Six Flags. I ended up breaking down right before the friends came over, and all I could say was "I don't want you to go" over and over to Kelly. I am incredibly angry with him, and it's mostly for the unexpected break up, but I do not want him to go. We wouldn't be breaking up if he didn't go. I wouldn't be sneaking away to cry if he didn't go. I just want to freeze time during every kiss and hug; I want them to last forever. Even I am having a hard time figuring out what I'm feeling lately. There are so many mixed emotions for what used to be so simple and focused. I feel; that's the easiest way I can put it.