For Love

Well, it's interesting what you will do for love or, rather, what Kelly will do for love. All his life he has wanted to be the first one in to war, so he intended on joining the Marines. Then one day his freind, Colton, to hold him about the Army Rangers. Since the day he and I met, he has wanted to be a Ranger.

We all know how our perspectives changed when we've fallen in love; it's a given. We learn new things and meet new people. I had been told by Kelly that he never pictured himself falling in love until he met me; he told me that he assumed love wasn't in the cards for him.  I, on the other hand, always wanted this crazy, romantic love story.  I had figured I had found that with him, and from what I had been learning he had found it too.

I received a letter today with the beautiful opening line; "Holy shit, I got your mail today!  My spirits are rejuvenated.  I cried when I got them.  The drill sergeant was funny as hell when he saw me pull out 21 letters.  He was like 'Holy fuck, guy. Is that from your girlfriend?  Isn't she supposed to be in college?' Everyone was cheering." I am very glad these letters to make him so happy...  even more so that they arrived to him. Now here's some good, and/or bad news.  He tells me that his new want in the military is no longer Airborne and Ranger. " I want to honor guard because I get to the home more. If I get honor guard, I will not do Airborne or Rangers.  Granted that may change after a few years, but as it stands I just want you close."

I'm not sure how to feel about this. I mean, I'm very happy that he's so eager to spend his life with me, but I don't know him not wanting to be a ranger.  Mixed emotions.  Mixed signals.  I don't know what to do.